All Alone with No One to Fill the Empty Spaces

When I am angry, I turn into the Incredible Hulk. When I am sad, I turn invisible. When I am angry, I must do everything in my power to keep from destroying everything around me. When I am sad, I must do everything in my power to keep from completely disappearing. When the Hulk comes out, even I am scared. He makes loud, incomprehensible noises to express what he's trying to say. When I turn invisible, no one can see me, or hurt me anymore.

Hulk is not actually an angry man. Really, he's just a sad little boy. He's scared. But he doesn't want to show his sadness, so he converts it into anger. He does not want to be angry, though. Look at his eyes when he's angry; you'll see tears.

Sometimes I want to run away. I don't know where to, though, as there's no place I'd rather be than in my own mind. And really, I cannot, in reality, run away to my mind. My mind is always there, but it isn't always open to me. It closes, telling me to deal with my problems on my own. I'm so invisible that I can't even see my self; I am unable to help myself.

Alot of the times when I am invisible, I read. As of late, I've found that I cannot read something if it is not either a fanfiction or of the fantasy genre. When I'm invisibly reading, I slowly come to. I shimmer back to reality. Or rather, everyone else's reality. When I read, my reality becomes that of what I am reading.

Right now I am reading the Generation Dead series by Daniel Waters. That is my reality. The differently biotic people-kids-in that book are the people I see. They are the ones I try to relate to (though, as a "traditionally biotic" person, I cannot relate to them). I do, however, feel for them. They cannot feel (or can they? I really haven't figured that out yet), and some of them are all alone. I, myself, sometimes feel like that. Now, I recommend that you read those books (Generation Dead and Kiss of Life), so that you can understand how amazing they are.

At the end of all of my blogs now, I am going to try to put a happy/funny quote, no matter the content of the entry. Here is the first (from my History class today):

Mick: *raises hand* Mick knows, I think.
Mr. Schreiber: "Mr. Schreiber is wondering why Mick is speaking of himself in third person."
Mick: "And Mick is wondering why Mr. Schreiber is wondering, uhm- Nevermind."
Class: *laughs*